Sunday, May 20th - Thursday, May 24th: Gay school and gay gay gay finals. Minus the day where me, Brianna, Abbie, Vanessa, Amanda, and Axel went out to eat/stalk.

Friday, May 25th: SUPER COOL AWESOME DRUNKEN BONFIRE/CAMPOUT WITH BRIANNA, VANESSA, ABBIE, AND AMANDA FEAT ANDY!

Saturday, May 26th: Super cool awesome day/sleepover at Kaleigh’s feat Mike’s Hard.

Sunday, May 27th: Super cool awesome day at Kaleigh’s feat Mike’s Hard.

Wednesday, May 16th - Thursday, May 17th: I fucked shit up. Again.

Friday, May 18th: I left school after fourth period to start getting ready for proooom! I really truly hated my hair but w/e. Prom was so much fun ugh. Afterwards though I was so tired and I had a migraine and yeah. We went to Baker’s Square, Andy stole a bowl of mashed potatoes. Then we went to Rachel’s for a bonfire and that was nice.

Saturday, May 19th: I watched movies basically all day. I took a nice cool shower. Amanda came over and we talked about prom/after prom for a bit. Then she got picked up and I got ready for the cub scout cook out/bonfire. We went and we had dinner. It was soooo good. Amanda got there just in time for dessert. PEACH COBBLER! I love peach cobbler, it was so good. Then Amanda and I sat around and had a heart to heart and talked about a lot. It was nice. Then omg they set up this huge movie screen and we got to watch Real Steel. I love that movie. I think my favorite part of the night was laying on the grass and looking up at the sky, though. It was so perfect outside and the breeze felt so nice and I could see satellites and stars and it was pretty. I just kept thinking Wow, I am so small. And it was almost relieving.

Saturday, May 5th - Thursday, May 10th: I really just don’t even remember.

Friday, May 11th: I didn’t go to school and then after school I took my brothers to the park where I saw Billy and Sonya and hung out with them for a bit.

Saturday, May 12th: I went shopping with my mom and my sister and that’s basically it.

Sunday, May 13th: Mother’s Day stuff for my mom yep

Monday, May 14th: Good day. Hung out with my brother for a bit. That is all.

Tuesday, May 15th: MY PERFECT BABE’S BIRTHDAY! Vanessa is 17 now. They grow up so fast. (‘:

Sunday, April 29th: I ruined everything. Cried.

Monday, April 30th: I wanted to kill myself. Cried.

Tuesday, May 1st: I tried to kill myself. Cried.

Wednesday, May 2nd: Still wanted to kill myself, but wasn’t going to try again. Cried.

Thursday, May 3rd: Nearly beat the fuck out of some god damn secretary because she wouldn’t give me my prom tickets. Cried.

Friday, May 4th: May the fourth be with you. I think I fixed things? Who the fuck knows. Cried.

Tuesday/Wednesday, April 24th/25th: Testing and good naps. Also Woodfield with Vanessa and her fam and it was perf.

Thursday, April 26th: I am searching my entire noggin right now for what the fuck I did and I got nothin’.

Friday, April 27th: I passed a history test and a physics test. That made me feel good. Um, Amanda slept over and we fell in love with Mifuel Uribe.

Today: I woke up, watched The Doodlebops, went back to sleep. I woke up again and watched my brother play Kingdom Hearts for a long time. Amanda slept until 2 and got picked up half an hour later. My mom and I went to Walmart. I started working on my project due Monday. My mom and I went to Jewel. Now I’m sat listening to Lil Wayne and trying to avoid this project.

Fuck this cruel sick joke, fuck Darrel, I want to fuck Gabe, and I love Vanessa.

Yeah, that sentence sums up my day. Oh, and alfredo. There we go.

Thursday, April 19th: I don’t really remember what I did… I would check my twitter because that would tell me, but I deactivated it \m/

Friday, April 20th: WEEEED!!!!!!! Just kidding. I was gonna smoke, but instead I went to Panera with Kaleigh, James, and Leonel. We went to a park where I could’ve smoked, but it was too cold, so we went back to my dad’s and started watching Bridesmaids until my dad came home. James and Leonel left and Kaleigh and I played Quiddler with my dad. When Kaleigh left, I watched my brothers and Candace’s kids play videogames until they went upstairs to sleep. I fell asleep on the couch watching Breakfast At Tiffany’s.

Saturday, April 21st: My youngest brother, Kristian, is 8! It’s kinda crazy that in two years all six of us will be in double digits. Amanda came by my dad’s and we went shopping with Candace and Madi. When we got home, my dad made us really good burgers. Amanda’s mom picked us up and we went to see The Vow. It was so cute. Um… After that, I got a few texts on the way home and once I got back to my dad’s I deleted certain people from my life, then packed my stuff and went back to my mom’s… Once I got to my mom’s I sort of just ran and sat in the shower with My World turned up all the way for a while… When I got out, I sort of talked to myself until I fell asleep. I was my only comfort during what was probably my worst attack ever.

Today, April 22nd: I woke up and took a real shower, then watched Family Matters and Ghost Adventures while I straightened my hair. I got dressed and sat on the computer for a bit. I deactivated my facebook and twitter and I plan to leave it that way for a while. Then the texts started ruining my day. We went to my dad’s for Kait and Kristian’s birthday “party”. It was nice to see my aunt and uncle and my little cousins. I ate and watched Michael Jackson videos on demand. That’s when I started feeling like complete shit. I realized an almost unbearable pain in my lower back and my stomach hurt like crazy. I went and took an hour long nap in my dad’s room and when I woke up, everyone was gone and we were leaving. I got home, got sick, and then decided I’d come updated my 365! Woop woop.

Tuesday, April 17th: School was decent. Abbie was a doll and gave me a ride home from school. I went to boy scouts to see Andy, but he didn’t go. Instead me and my mom went to Hobby Lobby for more stuff for my Breakfast At Tiffany’s project. It’s gonna be pretty. c: Andy came over and him and Jacob drooled over Brooke Willis. I gave Andy the prom papers and then I went to bed! Boring day.

Today, April 18th: TODAY WAS SO GOOD! I got to school nice and earlier so I could finish my homework. My clothes were nice. Lots of compliments. \m/ I talked to a certain someone I missed. I forgot my lunch money, but Sonya was a doll and let me by on her account. After school, I caught up on The Voice. I didn’t really do much. It was such a nice day though idk.

I GOT TO SEE AMANDA! I was so excited. I hugged her a million times and kept saying, “YOU’RE NOT IN FLORIDA ANYMORE! YOU’RE IN ILLINOIS!” She got me a Rapunzel pillow. <3 I carried it around all day. I got to see Ivan too. He complained about how much he missed me… Fag. It was such a good day and school went by fast. Mrs Palmer is all happy that I got my prom dress and she’s gonna help me plan my savings for Florida next year. (: 11 months, 6 days! (I like to start countdowns EXTREMELY early.)

Sunday, March 15th: It was the last day of break. I wasn’t a bit upset though because EVERYONE CAME BACK FROM FLORIDA! <3 I missed so many people omg. I didn’t do much though… I did some homework and I  went to Walmart with my mom. That’s kind of an average Sunday for me. Abbie and I also did a lot of math/planning for our trip to Florida next year! We are so excited.